Bye Bye 2008

How was your whole 2008? I bet it was memorable and amazing.
Finally, it's time to say "Goodbye" to the year of 2008 and "Welcome" to the fresh start of 2009 where you will spend the next 365 days living your life. In such a blink of an eye, a year has gone by leaving both good and bad times, cheerfulness and sadness, ups and downs that we have been through. Today is the last day of 2008. It's time to ask ourselves or a family member or a friend some interesting questions:
1. What have you accomplished over the last 12 months?
2. When was the moment that you were proud of yourself?
3. What positive and negative changes have you made?
4. What have you learnt from last year mistakes? Name three.
5. What was the best thing that happened to you this year?
6. Who have always been there when you needed the most?
7. Who did you think about when you were lonely?
8. What's something you go through that was really tough?
9. What new people did you meet that are now in your life?
10. What character trait did you develop most this year?

I want you to take your time think of the questions before you give the answers. Some of them may take time and are not easy to answer right away. This is a way you can keep progress of yourself and help your mind focus on what and who matters to you.

Whether they are big or small, long term or short-term goals over the next 12 months, you must have goals. Goals is like a guide book when you are in a new town, like a candle when you are in darkness, like a motivator behind your back. You can make everyday closer and closer to your goals where your dreams come true. However, goals should be realistic. Below are things to consider about:
- Improve your social life by making more friends or builiding stronger relationship if you have had enough
- Be more financially successful though the world economy is collapsing
- Finding the love of your life, your soul mate.
- Pursue a higher education
- Losing the weight or staying fit
- Love yourself more than ever
- Learn new skills: photoshop eidtor-i.e.
- Visiting new places, and old friends
- Returning home

( ‘ “”() Bye
(“( ‘o’, ) bye
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Goodbye2008

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Welcome2009

May New Year
Bring u Success,
Health, Wisdom,
Luck, Happiness

Through The Whole
Year!!!

Freezing Day Begins

"Brrrrrrrrrrr" It's freezing cold. As of today, the temperature in Redmond is 27F (-2.7c). I was recently asked whether i prefered living in a hot or cold weather. I then answered i prefered winter to summer due to the fact that i don't want to have darker skin. Snow had been falling heavily that my car was covered with it. Snow can be beautiful but it causes more disadvantages than advantages. Examples include difficulties and risks in driving, wiping your car before you leave, staying at home all day, you name it because i don't know other reasons. Lolz. One good thing about snowing is CLASS CANCELLATION. What? I'm such a lazy student. Yes i am.

First up, i was snow-writing "I LOVE YOU" for everyone i love, esp my mum, but i couldn't do it. So i did this instead. It has the same meaning.

This is the first time i made a heart-sharp snowball. My clothes were all dirty and my hands were numb.

Question: is snow edible? Of course, it is, but chance is you might have diarrhea after all.

It is the same spot i took a picture last year.

Taken from window. Does it look sad and lonely at all? Kinda.

That's it for today. Happy Holidays.

She's the one!

It's a regular day. Everything is regular, the sun, the sky, the tree and the building. I was in my regular seven-hour work shift doing regular sale. Then there was one thing not-so-regular happening. Of course, there was someone i have been longing to see appeared in front of me. I didn't know since when she was here, but it didn't matter any more. I ran as fast as i could towards her, but careful enough not to embarrass myself by tripping or knocking her and myself down. She stood still looking at me as i ran, with a lovely warm-hearted smile. I stretched and wrapped my arms all around her for half a minute. That was the moment i have been waiting for and dying to do. As I felt her presence within me, i asked, "Mum, how did you come here?". "I came here to visit you," she told. "How long are you staying here?" I continued. "Just one day," she said. I thought that was a very short time, but maybe there was a reason for that. Then without thinking, i left my work and walked away with my beloved mum....

That was just a dream i had last night. That dream would have lasted longer if my nature hadn't called me in the middle of the night. Just write down so that i don't forget my own dream since this is the only way i could see her, spiritually.

Mum, i know you are not reading this, nor could you fully understand when you are reading it. But i promise you, that very dream will become true the very next day i see you.

"No matter how old i am getting, i am still a baby for you"

Life Phylosophy

This is probably the most important post i have ever wrote because i put all the pieces of life lesson puzzles together. A tree can stand tall because of its root. The better the root is, the stronger the tree is. Similarly, a man depends on his beliefs to succeed. Beliefs are the core, the essential part of your being, the inner you; in other words, the person inside you. Positive beliefs lead to positive attitude and positve mind set which affect every part of your life and relationship. As much as i wish i want to systematically install the following beliefs inside myself.

1. By default, people are born with good heart. By good heart, i mean they are good persons with honesty and integrity.

2. People are generally open to conversation. They may look a little mean, but we cannot tell if they like to talk or not, unless we start talking.

3. If you are too tired of saying hello, just smile to people and count how many smiles you get back. You won't believe it. Smile is the best conversation opener.

4. By telling myself i like people i talk to, i become a better conversationalist. I am even better if i talk with people i don't like, and people who don't like me.

5. The first step to make people like you is to like yourself in the first place. If you don't like yourself, why should other?

6. Know what make you happy and what make you unhappy. Do only what make you happy. Know your strenght and weakness. Keep your strenght, improve your weakness.

7. Learn something new everyday, you will be amazed by the end of the month how knowledgeable you are.

8. Play with a child in your free time. But don't act childish.

9. Don't overthink, don't overanalyse, don't spend a second try to think what other are thinking of you or it will take your own peace away. They are too busy thinking about themselves.

10. Don't forget to breath, this is the most important task.

Randomly Crazy Ideas

If you were born a camera-friendly person, you can ignore this post since you know it best in front of the zooming lens. If you were not, don't worry. You are not the only person and not everyone feel comfortable when their whole image being watched and taken. I know this because i am myself sometimes expressionless and body language dead-lock after all. My body turns pretty stiffed and my hands cannot find a good position besides resting in my pockets. My lips turn dry and a smile is hardly natural. Enough for this little drama.

Luckily there are rules to be learnt in almost any aspects of life-from learning to walk and talk to taking a picture. Unlike a model who needs to subconsciously communicate through his or her facial expression and body language in order to sell or promote a product, we only need to have a simply lovely photo. First thing first, SMILE is the most important ingredient of your whole picture recipe. If you can't do anything else, just smile. A way to find your best smile can be:

- looking into the mirror and smile and see whether you smile too much or too little.

- looking at your previous photos and see which one has the best smile. Next time, all you have to do is to follow that picture.
- say CHEESE or GEEZE.
- pretend that the photographer is your lover and you must smile at him/her from the bottom of your heart.

Now you have mastered your smiling skill, we can jump to body language, mainly your hands. One of the most popular gesture is a V finger. That's very simple yet quite universal. As a process, we can learn from easy steps before we move up to complex hip-hop move. Therefore, I have compiled a selection of various photo styles that would help as a basic idea.

friend Veng 's smile

sister Leakhena 's smile

Baby's smile

Grandma's smile + V fingers. I miss and love you.

Mei-Mei and me with double thumb-index V fingers ( I don't know if such word exists. lolz)

Cousin Theary's V

Robin's Vs

Angelica and Cynthea's creative Vs

My V

To be continued...

Tired or being tired

I strongly believe that our physical well-being and mental well-being have a profound relationship with each other. Recently i have been to the gym doing some intense workout which took away so much energy from my body. To be a good sharp and to have a sexy shirt-less six-pack chest muscle body on the beach is not easy as one-two-three or A-B-C at all. We have to balance between the input and output of energy, dietry and sleeping time. When i am physically tired, i have two choices: one is to allow my mind to be tired too, and the other is to allow not. I am getting tired of being tired. The term tireness and laziness should also be distinguised. I am tired of being lazy. Let's rock and make everyday as exciting as tomorrow you are having a girlfriend, a new girlfriend indeed.

The 4th of July, 2008 in Bellevue Park Videos Taken

This is a collection of videos i took on the 4th of July in Bellevue Downtown Park in 2008. It is said that "A picture says a thousand words." Therefore, a motion picture says it all. Enjoy...National Anthem started off the 4th of July

Sparkling Firecrackers lighted up the dark sky in the last minute

This crowd remained me of the Water Festival in PHNOM PENH.

The 4th of July, 2008 in Bellevue Park

In the United States, Independence Day, commonly known as the Fourth of July, is a federal holiday commemorating the adoption of the Declaration of Independence on July 4, 1776, declaring independence from the Kingdom of Great Britain. Independence Day is commonly associated with fireworks, parades, barbecues, carnivals, picnics, concerts, baseball games, political speeches and ceremonies, and various other public and private events celebrating the history, government, and traditions of the United States. For full article read here.

The Independence Day is one of the biggest memorable events in America. Everyone has been waiting for the celebration of this ceremony weeks or months before its arrival. The most significant part of the 4th of July is the massive firework of the year. Pictures can say a thousand words more than i could think of. Here you are.

Folks gathering at Bellevue Park, waiting for the night to come

Just a row of toilette, don't underestimate how necessary they can be

Impressive Firework Scence

This street used to be quiet, look at it now

My friend and co-worker helped me edit this funny-looking picture. Thanks Alek.

The Mask Of Beauty

Each and every day, human-being is becoming more and more obsessed with the way they look. They would spend several hours in front of the mirror to make sure there hair is eye-catching or in 2008 hairstyle catalogue, and their face is full of attraction. They get upset by a tiny pimple or any signs of make-down.



We are living in the world of competition. The one who has big sparkling eyes, long eyebrows, thin shinny lips, pointy nose, multi-color highlighted hair, curve body, etc. is the winner. The one who were born with not-so-good-looking figure or with disabilities are automatically dismissed. But this is not TRUE.



If we were taught from the day of our birth that the former type of person is considered ugly; on the other hand, the latter is pretty, then the whole perception of beauty is a contrast. In other words, we will logically see pretty person ugly and ugly person pretty.



The face is probably the most important part of body when the subject of physical beautiness is being discussed. Nevertheless, when the real beautiness is being evaluated, the personality trait consumes more importance. Ironically, beautiful face is nothing rather a structure of well-formed shape of face bone filled with good complex of skin cells or tissues to form organs such as eyes, ears, nose, etc.



Sometimes, i got stunned when i looked at my reflection in the mirror and noticed the detail of my appearance that i never pay attention before. Today if we start to notice the detail of each person face we meet, we will see deep down a real person behind that skin and feel an intimate connection. Don't just look at the surface, but don't give a prolong stare either. Look straight into the eyes and feel their presence mentally wired.



Our physical appearance plays a role as representation of who we physically are. But our brain is commander of who we emotionally, mentally, spiritually are. Is the person you look in the mirror really yourself? What if all we see is not truly what we see? Do you believe that one person sees things differently from anther? Who are we exactly? Would you rather have a good-looking friends who are not really listening to you or an average-looking friends whom you feel comfortable talking to?



I am writing until i don't know how to end my post with a valuable idea. I couldn't think of anything better this short quote which summarizes it all: Beauty does not last, but personality. The person you see as pretty or handsome today cannot be guaranteed to be the same next month or next year. The reverse is also true that the person you see as ugly cannot be guaranteed to be the same next month or next year. So why not treat everyone equally the way you want to be treated? Take Britney Spear as an example. She was one of the most heavenly, angelic, desired-to-be-with, beautiful females on earth. How long does it take for her to become less attractive? Not very long. By the way, who knows if tomorrow she will rock again? lolz. I was a fan of her; moreover, i am still a fan of her no matter what.



Oops, i forgot to mention that the green face on top is me. What inspires me to write this post is that artifact face i made from a little toy. Though my appreance always changes slighly from time to time, i will stay the same person internally.

How To Become An Active Reader

Have you ever found yourself reading a book word by word or page by page, yet little you understand what the writer is talking about? There are two type of reading habits, passive and active readings. Passive reading is reading without thinking or specific purposes. This includes reading a joke, a magazine, or anything for fun which are easily forgettable. Active reading is reading, feeling, understanding what the writer is writing. You engage with the text, both mentally and physically. Reading without learning from what you read is a waste of time.

Summary of how to become an active reader:
1. Skim ahead and jump back

2. Mark up the text-always have a pen and a notebook

• Highlight and underline keywords
• Circle unfamiliar words
• Make marginal notes

- Questions?

- Agree or disagree?

- Connections

- Evaluations

3. Make specific observations

Detail of how to become an active reader:
1. Skim ahead and jump back:
Skimming ahead enables you to see what’s coming up in your reading. Page through the text you’re about to read. Notice how the text is broken down, what the main topics are, and the order in which they are covered. Notice key words and ideas that are boldfaced, bulleted, boxed, or otherwise highlighted. Skimming through the text beforehand will prepare you for what you are about to read. It’s a lot like checking out the hills and curves in the course before a cross-country race. If you know what’s ahead, you know how to pace yourself, so you’re prepared to handle what’s to come. When you finish your reading, jump back. Review the summaries, headings, and highlighted information in the text. Notice both what the author highlighted and what you highlighted. By jumping back, you help solidify in your mind the ideas and information you just read. You’re reminded of how each idea fits into the whole, how ideas and information are connected. When you make connections between ideas, you’re much more likely to remember them.

2. Mark up the text
Marking up the text creates a direct physical link between you and the words you’re reading. It forces you to pay closer attention to the words you read and takes you to a higher level of comprehension.
- Highlight and underline:
When you highlight or underline key words and ideas, you are identifying the most important parts of the text. There’s an important skill at work here: You can’t highlight
or underline everything, so you have to distinguish between the facts and ideas that are most important (major ideas) and those facts and ideas that are helpful but not so important (minor or supporting ideas). Highlight only the major ideas, so you don’t end up with a text that’s completely highlighted.

- Circle unfamiliar words:
One of the most important habits to develop is that of circling and looking up unfamiliar words and phrases. If possible, don’t sit down to read without a dictionary by your side. It is not uncommon for the meaning of an entire sentence to hinge on the meaning of a single word or phrase, and if you don’t know what that word or phrase means, you won’t understand the sentence. Besides, this habit enables you to quickly and steadily expand your vocabulary, so you’ll be a more confident reader and speaker. If you don’t have a dictionary readily available, try to determine the meaning of the word as best you can from its context. Then, make sure you look up the word as soon as possible so you’re sure of its meaning.

- Make marginal notes:
Recording your questions and reactions in the margins turns you from a passive receiver of information into an active participant in a dialogue. You will get much more out of the ideas and information you read about if you create a “conversation”with the writer. Here are some examples of the kinds of reactions you might write down in the margin or in your notebook:
■ Questions often come up when you read. They
may be answered later in the text, but by that time,
you may have forgotten the question! And if your
question isn’t answered, you may want to discuss it
with someone: “Why does the writer describe the
new welfare policy as ‘unfair’?” or “Why does the
character react in this way?”
■ Agreements and disagreements with the author
are bound to arise if you’re actively reading.Write
them down: “That’s not necessarily true!” or “This
policy makes a lot of sense to me.”
■ Connections you note can be either between the
text and something that you read earlier or
between the text and your own experience.
For example, “I remember feeling the same way
when I . . .” or “This is similar to what happened
in China.”
■ Evaluations are your way of keeping the author
honest. If you think the author isn’t providing sufficient
support for what he or she is saying or that
there’s something wrong with that support, say so:
“He says the dropping of the bomb was inevitable,
but he doesn’t explain why” or “This is a very
selfish reason.”


3. Make observations
Good readers know that writers use many different strategies to express their ideas. Even if you know very little about those strategies, you can make useful observations about what you read to better understand and remember the author’s ideas. You can notice, for example, the author’s choice of words; the structure of the sentences and paragraphs; any repetition of words or ideas; important details about people, places, and things; and so on.
This step—making observations—is essential because your observations (what you notice) lead you to logical inferences about what you read. Inferences are conclusions based on reason, fact, or evidence. You are constantly making inferences based on your observations, even when you’re not reading. For example, if you notice that the sky is full of dark, heavy clouds, you might infer that it is going to rain; if you notice that your coworker has a stack of gardening books on her desk, you might infer that she likes gardening. If you misunderstand what you read, it is often because you haven’t looked closely enough at the text. As a result, you base your inferences on your own ideas and experiences, not on what’s actually written in the text. You end up forcing your own ideas on the author (rather than listening to what the author has to say) and then forming your own ideas about it. It’s critical, then, that you begin to really pay attention to what writers say and how they say it.
Edited from Reading Comprehension Success in 20 minutes.pdf

SUPERCUT HAIRCUT

I hate to have a haircut because it's darn expensive in the U.S. I could have my hair cut ten times or for a whole year in my hometown,Cambodia, for the same amount of money, not to mention the tips. One interesting fact is that a hairdresser must have a license to perform their task.

The estimate time of my haircut is three minutes. That's the shortest time i have ever sat a haircut seat. As soon as i sat down, i was asked "How short do you want your hair cut?" OH man, that was hard to answer. Should i say very short, short enough for two months, meduim short, or whatever looks good. Ok let's look at the photo (a) before and (b) after the haircut.

Which Photo Looks Better?

How to embed a Flash/SWF extenstion file on a blog

Requirement:
1. Flash Player. To download click here
2. Medium Internet Speed Recommended.

While I was browsing in My Computer folder which is running of space, it reminded me of a challenging game i had been fond of long ago. It is called "HANGAROO". Have you ever played before? It's similar to a HANGMAN except a hangaroo was used instead of a man. The object is to save a hangaroo from being hung by correctly filling out the missing alphabets. If you wanna download this game to ur PC, click here.

Thus, i asked myself how possibly i could share this game with others since it is only on my computer. Of course, you can just search on Google "Play Hangaroo Online" and it will show a bunch a sites in a blink of eyes that allow you to play it. Then i asked myself how possibly i could embed this game on my blog. Oh oh.... I got no clue at all how to embed something from a website that don't give "Embed Code". It sounds impossible for someone with no html background knowledge. The first thing i did was searching on helpful Google "how to embed flash player game on a blog" or anything i can think of. But Google turned out to be helpless this time. Google could not help everything.

When there is a will, there is a way. I spent a good 2 hours to get it done. I am willing to share the how-to-do:
1. Open a website with this game**. I used this one www.2dplay.com/hangar/hangaroo-play.htm

2. In your browser (IE v.7 for example), Click on Page. Then View Source. Different browsers have different paths. In any cases, look for View Source.

3. Ctrl + F. Then type "embed" to find the embed code.
Here is a sample of what u need to look for.
embed src="http://www.2dplay.com/hangaroo/hangaroo.swf" quality="high" pluginspage="http://www.macromedia.com/go/getflashplayer" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" width="550" height="400">

Once you find it, copy and paste it to your blog post. That's pretty simple and i hope you could do.

**Note: I tried a couple websites but only this one worked. So you might try and see what works.

**Note: You can embed flash or swf file such as games or greeting cards.

**Note: You can change the width and height to best fit your blog space.

Buffaloes, Lions and Crocodiles Battle

This is without doubt one of the best video clip i have ever seen in my life. In the beginning, on one side of my mind, i felt so pity for the poor baby buffalo which was attacked by the hungry and dangerous lions. On the other side, i know that this is what lions have to do as the jungle king hunters for they cannot eat grass or fruit. It's unbelievable to witness that the crocodiles were silent hunters looking for prey during which the little buffaloes desperately trying to escape from the sharp claws. What's more surprsing to me is the return of the crowd of buffaloes to rescue the vitim buffalo. I was a little angry at the lions in the first place. But as i watched them confronting a serious situation, my whole perspective was completely changed. I wish the lions could apologize to the buffaloes.

If i am not too touched by this breath-taking battle, i think at least i have observed some valuable lessons:
1) Calm, relax and patience are virtue. (The lions were very patient predators)
2) Set Goals or Begin with an end. (They also set goals before they started their hunting)
3) Look for opportunity and take it right away. But don't take advantage of others. (The crocodiles are opportunists. They are best only in water. I wish they got out of water or the lions could swim. Notice how the lions got scared by them. They looked funny. lolz)
4) Show mercy to the weak (the buffaloes had a chance to kill the lions by running over them, but they didn't take it and let them free)
5) Teamwork. (I really praised how the buffaloes communicated each other, how they worked in a team to make a strong power, how they loved each other)
6) Struggling and hard-working bring success. (The small buffalo's life was hanging by a threat, yet he kept fighting till his dying breath. At the end, he managed to escape from the lions)
7) Don't give up. (If the young buffalo gave up, it would have died. But it overcame pain and fear to survive with almost zero hope. If i were him, i might have closed my eyes and got eaten.)
8) Be prepared for the good or bad or any unexpected things. (The tourist started the car engine before hand)

Love Quotes

1) "Lucky is the man who is the first love of a woman, but luckier is the woman who is the last love of a man. "--Unknown
2) "Take away love, and our earth is a tomb."--Robert Browning
3) "If you love me only in my dreams, let me be asleep forever."--Unknown
4) "You know it's love when you want to keep holding hands even after you're sweaty"--Unknown
5) "The four most important words in any marriage..."I'll do the dishes."--Unknown
6) "No man is truly married until he understands every word his wife is NOT saying."--Unknown
7) "A man is already halfway in love with any woman who listens to him."-- Brendan Francis
8) "It is impossible to love and be wise."-- Francis Bacon
9) "True love is like seeing ghosts; we all talk about it, but few of us have ever seen one."-- La Rochefoucauld
10) "Put your hand on a hot stove for a minute, and it seems like an hour. Sit with a pretty girl for an hour, and it seems like a minute. That's relativity."-- Albert Einstein

Father's Day_15th June

It's obviously undeniable to say that FAMILY stands for Father and Mother I Love You. In the USA, Mother's Day and Father's Day are celebrated, on the 2nd Sunday of May and on the 3rd Sunday of June respectively, to honor our parents for everything they do for us throughout their life.

The Birthday

There are four types of people who pay attention to your birthday: family, gf/bf, best friends and so-called friends. Let's start from the last one, so-called friend category. Not many of your friends could remember the year you were born, let alone the whole birthday. I can't complain because it's not necessary to them. Some best friends still probably don't know your birthday, but for sure it's good to constantly remind them that your birthday is coming and to prepare the gift in advance. Some of them also do remember and might surprise you with a midnight message just a second after your birthday arrives. How is about gf/bf category, no matter what they seem to know your birthday without being told. They might see it on your student ID, or in your online profile, or ask your friend, or any other ways they don't want to tell you. It takes just once to see and to remember. By family, it's not all about family members who remember your birthday, but there are two persons who never forget your birthday. Of course, they are DAD and MUM. Imagine the joy, the smile, the excitement of seeing their newly-born babies after they have been waiting anxiously for the longest expect-to-be 9 months and 10 days. They are already very happy when they see you through the black and white echography. Knowing that you are a male or female, they spend countless time thinking what the best name you should have, finding the clothes, decorating your room and bed, etc... there are million other things they have done, that you don't know, just for you.

Dad-and-son story:

My dad used to ask me if i wanted to have birthday party. He would make one if i said yes. Instead, i always said "No, i don't want to" because i thought that i am a guy. It's not often that i see a guy holding his birthday party. It has become my belief not to have one myself. In fact, i am not confident enough to ask my friends to my birthday. How shy!

"Tick tick," Early in the morning, my dad knocked my door and handed a light envelope a little bigger than the money size on my table and left without saying anything, and i didn't have a chance to say "Thanks you, dad". I knew already what was going to be inside since it was my birthday. I thought he must have prepared it for me. I gradually opened it. I was right, it was a brand-new $100 bill. It was a big amount of money for me at that time and i could carelessly spend it on a bunch of stuff without realizing the hardship he had borne to earn this much. In the evening, we would rather go out to have a big dinner together. My mum gave me the right to select the menu, which she usually did. It was fun and we did that almost every year except last year and this coming year due to the fact that we are physically apart.

On the contrary, when it came to his birthday, it was ungrateful that i never did anything. Well i could give myself a good excuse that i didn't have any money. But there were countless things i could possibly do without a lot money such as writing him a Birthday postcard, surprising him with a birthday cake, simply calling to wish him "Happy Birthday, dad, I wish you a healthy body", or taking him to a planned dinner after a week of money saving. These are great ways to express our gratitude to him.

The Childhood

There was a time when i was in primary school, i was sightly beaten by a fairly bigger boy than i was. I cried out to my opponent "I would tell my dad when i got home." But as soon as i got home, i forgot it. He did the same thing to me for the next time. The frustration drove my adrenaline level high. I must tell my dad. I remember very clearly what he did when i told him: he got me on his motorcycle to school. I pointed out the bully boy. My dad approached him. He squeezed his collars up and warned, "Don't do that to my son again." Never in life that i felt this protected. That boy swore to god never walk past me again.

It was 3 am. It had been an hour that i stayed restless on my bed. I was having a sever painful stomach-ache combined with diarrhea. I thought It could be a food poisoning or an intestinite. I didn't want to wake my parents up at this hour. The pain was bad; nevertheless, I managed to put up with all the pain until i had to knock my parents' room. My dad gave me a pain-reliever but it was still not effective. Despite there were only a couple hours more till the dawn, he impatiently drove me to a clinic. On our way, i felt better as the pain slowly disappeared. I told him i was OK now. He asked me if i wanted to have some white porridge along boulevard. I agreed. Though my tongue could not taste anything, i emptied the porridge from the bowl with salty eggs. As the sun was raising, he took me to a hospital and had me examined by the doctor. I was diagnosed with គ្រុនពេាះវៀន​ (typhoid). So i had to stay at the hospital until everything was clear. My parents had to stop working to take care of me. My mum was sitting right beside my hospital bed assuring me with comfort and caress. My dad went out for awhile. He came back with a bag of porridge for me. I felt the same way they cared for me when i was 3 years old. They were always there when i needed them. That feeling was great. I was physically not well. But mentally i was so well. I never knew that i liked the hospital bed, and i wish i could stay at the hospital longer.

From my opinion, i don't regret for what i have done. But i regret for what i have not done. Therefore, i am going to do what i can do right now. This song is uniquely dedicated to my dad who has played a role as my raiser, my mentor, my guide, my protector and my role model. I could not be who i am today without him. In fact, there would not be today, nor yesterday, nor tomorrow.

Life Lessons

It bothers me when i am trying to look for sth, I won't find it. When i give up, it shows up right in front of me.

Everyone is born with a good heart.

There are billions of people in the world. Don't compare with yourself with other people. Just be yourself, because there are enough already. (help me edit this one)

What is Love?

PART 1

Love is when you glance at your phone every two minutes waiting for someone's call or sms. You are happy when you hear your phone rings and see their name on the screen.

Love is when you save every message you receive from him. You won't delete his messages unless you have nicely typed them in a Microsoft Word, or he makes you angry.

Love is when finding a seat the nearest to her in the classroom. Front row or back row is no importance.

Love is when looking at her playing with her siblings through a small window of your house.

Love is when you st...st...stutter when you are talking with her.

PART2

Love is when you look at her photo several times a day, and sometimes you give it a light kiss.

Love is when you could not remember the math formula at school, but you could remember exactly his birthday without reciting.

Love is when you see her as the most beautiful lady in spite of any pimples.

Love is when you spend a sleepless night thinking about whether he is thinking about you the same way.

Love is when you don't want time to run out when you are with her.

Two Face_Bruce-Springsteen

Temporarily there is nothing i have in mind to post out beside to share this lovely romantic song. How do you evaluate or rate one song whether it's cool or not? To me, since most artists who can make an album generally have some kind of potentials already (Artists are not necessarily important, but i tend to selectively pick the well-known ones. I know this is a controversy. Can't help:-)), first i listen to the kind of genre that the songs have such as ROCK, R&B and POP. Then i focus on the meanings that the writers want to talk about. That's it.
BTW I've never heard this song before until now. I have been listening to it several times. Still, i don't understand exactly what he means exactly by "Two Faces". Does it mean one face is :-) and another is :-( ??? And if it is true, probably we have more than two faces such as:
:-D Happy Face
:-( Sad Face
\(^_^)/ Joyful Face
(>_<) Annoying Face
(*^_^*) Blushing Face
(*^o^*) Exciting Face
(^_-) Winking Face
(=_=)~ Sleepy Face
(^_^) Male Smiley
(^.^) Female Smiley
(-_-) Secret Smile
(^o^) LOL
(^_^)/ Waving hello
(;_;)/ Waving good-bye



I met a girl and we ran away
I swore I'd make her happy every day
And how I made her cry
Two faces have I

Sometimes mister I feel sunny and wild
Lord I love to see my baby smile
Then dark clouds come rolling by
Two faces have I

One that laughs one that cries
One says hello one says goodbye
One does things I don't understand
Makes me feel like half a man

At night I get down on my knees and pray
Our love will make that other man go away
But he'll never say goodbye
Two faces have I

Last night as I kissed you 'neath the willow tree
He swore he'd take your love away from me
He said our life was just a lie
And two faces have I

Well go ahead and let him try.

Self-Conflict

I am wondering why recently my self-esteem, self-confidence and self-value seem to drop down dramatically. It hurts me internally when i have to fall down from the top of a fruitful tree into a dry well of darkness. Some day, i feel on top of the world that i could achieve anything i want to. Some other days, i feel so blue that i don't wanna talk with anyone. I don't know whether this is called a cycle of life but i do know that life can be tough, and the more i grow, the more responsibilities i have.
I found myself easily trapped by the net of negativity. Those evil thoughts tend to hunt me every time i meet obstacles. Maybe i am a kind of guy who likes holding things to myself. The way i have grown is that I always do whatever it takes to help myself in the first step. I would not tell anybody that i need help. I tend to be strong but i am fragile and weak. I tend to smile but it is a fake one. I know there is something missing in my life. I wish i could be reborn to complete what is missing. Everyone has weakness and limitation, why should i care about mine? If i look at my pros, i have almost everything i desire at this time. I have a full family, a comfortable place to stay, a good job, a good school, enough money to spend, a nice car, a nice phone, a nice camera, a GPS, ipod, ihome, FM transmitter, a laptop with Internet connectivity, a person who loves me, etc. This is what i do when i am not happy: counting my property. What else do i need? I am never enough; i am greedy. We were born with nothing, why we desire so much? In Buddhism, one path to happiness is stay in the middle line. That's so true. If only i could detach myself from my ego, then i would not be trapped inside my self-conflict.
I don't know if what i am writing makes any sense to you because it is from deep down in my self-consciousness. I am writing this so that i could read it again, maybe in the next ten years, i would laugh at myself because i know that i am not controlling my mind, but the other way around.

"This blog has been moved" is invalid.

Hey i got a good news. Finally, finally, after several weeks of helpless despair resulting from undiscoverable errors of sidebar dropping down, i am relieved to announce that this blog is coming back with its one week-old younger brother khmerbluesky.blogspot.com.
Thanks for Uncle Blogger Help Group.
Surprisingly, the cause of the error is the result of my post named "Dare to fail" (URL error). As its name implies, "Dare to fail" brings me a lot of troubles. But now of course, after i dare to fail, i dare to jump again.
Thanks for all ur help, you know who i mean. Happy happy.